December (II)//If I was the Light.

What day is it today? I don't even know.

I haven't checked the date since holidays started and I've been wasting the days away by sleeping, eating, and playing video games. As well as using the net till late at night.

Even though I get sleepy I don't go to sleep because...well, I don't know myself. Something stops me, god knows what.

I bet before I even know it, people are fill my message inbox with messages saying 'Happy Birthday!' or call me and wish me. And I'm going to be so blur.

I don't even feel like throwing myself a party. I'm not worth it :P


If I was the Light, you would never have to worry about waking up alone.

If I was the Light, I would bathe you with my warmth from the Sun and the brightness from...electricity (=_=)

If I was the Light, even you're dreams have me in it.

If I was the Light, you would need me anytime of the day.

If I was the Light, I would be there with you in your darkest hour.

If I was the Light, you would not talk to me.

If I was the Light, you would see right through me.

If I was the Light, I would not be able to talk to you.

If I was the Light, I would not hear your laughter or see your smiles.

If I was the Light, you would have a shadow.

And then I would hope that you would not lose to that shadow since it is a part of you. 

And I will always be with you.


But I'm not the Light. 

So I cry and laugh for that.