１リットルの涙。

When I watch this drama it just makes me cry. It's only the second episode, and I'm bursting with tears. I wonder how the real person must have felt when she found out she had this disease. I wonder how her parents had put up with knowing it. This drama had many funny moments yet the moment I laughed was the moment I cried.

The tears don't stop.

Merry-Go-Round.

We stood in line for the Merry-Go-Round.
There were tons of people waiting in front of us.
When we had the chance to sit, we couldn't sit together because there were no empty spots which we could sit together.
So you sat on one horse while I sat on another. Except we were across each other and the pillar at the center of the Merry-Go-Round blocked our view of each other.
But when the ride ended and we met each other again, you beamed a smile at me and said it was fun.
So I smiled and said it was fun for me too, even though it was a lie.
I hope you lied too when you told me it was fun.

Fly me to the moon,
And let me play among the stars.
Let me see what spring is like on Jupiter and Mars.
In other words, hold my hand
In other words, darling, kiss me.

Fill my heart with song,
and let me sing forever more.
You are all I long for, all I worship and adore.
In other words, please be true
In other words, I love you.
- Fly me to the moon

Hey. Make me laugh.

The World Still Moves Round and Round.

It is messy. It had to be messy. It didn't have to stop. It shouldn't stop. Because it kept moving I was thankful. Even though right now you're not relying on me. Even if right now I can't smile. And all I'm doing right now is listening to music which sings about the world moving round and round.

And then you'll laugh at me. I know I can't do anything. I know I'm incapable of doing anything. But then I wanted to lie and say I could. Why can't I lie?

I want to dream of reality.

In front of you I laugh :)

ピンク色なのに？

ピンク色なのに、ピンク色じゃない？

愛じゃなくて。恋じゃなくて。
友情。

友。友。友。

それでも。。。愛も。。。恋も。。。必要としてる。

光？
闇？

ツレテクレルダレカガホシイ。

Every.

A.
As if you knew everything.
I hope next time, you'll think a bit.
You don't realize, it has affected me.

B.
Fall.
Scream.
Laugh.
Cry.
Live.

C.
Reality is vague.
Reality is peculiar.
Reality is...reality?

I should have looked more closely when things were so obvious. I must have lied so that I could run away and live in a dream. I should have listened closely when the sounds were blaring in my ears. I must have worn ear plugs so that I don't end up getting frustrated.

But now I am frustrated. Frustrated. Frustrated. Frustrated. I feel even more pathetic than I was before. But since the truth has been revealed, I think it's much more easier for me to move on.

明日も。

If you do this, it is bad.
If you do that, it is bad.

You're trying but you're not.
You're falling but you're not.

Pity me, pity me.
Somebody, hear me.

I'm crying, I'm crying.
But I'm not. I'm not.

Take my scissors. My hands were shaking.
I needed to feel something different. So I cut.

Myself? Me? What did I do?
Proof is on me. Scars.

泪。笑顔。何？
I'm tired. I'm tired.

つながってる。　ツナガッテル？
何フザケテンノ？

It hurts. It hurts.
イタイ。　イタイ。

Help. Help.
助けないで。

明日も逃げよう。

きっと。。。

色々ある世界の中で

私は笑う。

あなたもきっと笑ってる。

ウソだとしても。

だって、仕方ないもん。

でしょ？

でも、

きっと、

いつか、

心から笑う。

だからあきらめないで。

元気だして。

笑顔見せてほしい。